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Wednesday, February 24, 2010 -

yo!

just wanna talk about my week(:

i havent been posting recently cuz i have been studying for my exams..

which is this week..

tmr's chemistry.. so after this, im gonna study study study!

school is stress.

oh, btw, i've been reading this book titled boy meets girl.

its realy good. same author of kiss dating goodbye.

its a christian book and its really helpful in equiping? people with more knowledge bout courtship..

actually the past few days were quite depressing..

cus i didnt really do that well in some of my subjects.. but i guess you can look on the bright side of everything..

atleast their just tests(: haha.

but sometimes i feel that God is always there for me..

like i failed my e math class test, but by God's grace.. the teacher gave us a retest..

it couldnt be a coincidence cus it was the only test i failed, and it was the only test one of my teachers re-tested.

how cool is that..

zenas(:

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Sunday, February 14, 2010 -

hi,

haven't been posting regularly for such a long time..

haiz.

things that happen recently(:

1)celebrated my mum's 50th birthday!

i guess it was especially meaningful because she totally didn't expect it.

haha.

2) cheering competition. after days of staying back late after school to practice,

we won 2nd place(:

awesomest!

although i didnt really contribute any help to the class. haha.

good job e1!

3) had cg on saturday.

the cg topic was on BGR.

it really cleared my mind of doubts i had..

cg is awesome, because God is awesomer.

what can i do, without the Lord guiding me?

4) chinese new year.

todays sermon was really Good. although i didnt understand any of the chinese worship songs.

haha.

i really hope all of u guys have a great chinese new year.

zenas.

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Friday, February 5, 2010 -

haiz, so long haven post...

it seems like i cant talk to anyone anymore.

school is so stress.. i hate all of the subjects we take.. its totally useless..

i hate a math. it totally makes me go crazy..

chem is difficult to understand..

my physics teacher has some heavy accent that is really irratating sometimes..

i hate PE lessons.

why must life be like this, why is the cycle of life never ending...

why do we have to learn subjects that doesnt matter in life?

why.why.why.why.why.

mood swings.

im sorry that i've been acting so weirdly in class..

haiz..

and im sick and tired of the attitudes some of the people have in RE..

they have serious problems..

do u actually thing that robotics is just about fun and games?

grow up.. its ur last year in ur CCA, and ur still having a mindset of a kid who just wants to play LEGO.

u guys always complain about, why are u so lucky to go on competetions.. but u only see the end..

u dont see the process and sacrificies we make when we go for competitions. i burned all of my freaking holidays, to prepare for competitions,

and u guys are complaining? thats seriously wrong..

stop coming into club with that kind of attitude. and dont just aim to be exco just because u want the reconition, but serve the club in the best way u can..

why cant u guys get it into ur thick headed skulls...

sometimes i wish time would reverse..

i wish i could spend time with my best buddy wang shen more..

hanging out with him was super awesome..

we ate together during recess, and talked about things that bothered us..

but now that we're in separate classes, its so hard to talk.. its like we're not even close anymore.

and its so sian to eat alone during recess everyday..

its so sian not to have ur on click.. in school..

im only close to yingjie now.. but she has her own friends to eat with, and talk to..

i just wish things could be like last time.

me and my buddy

and another thing thats bothering me is the fact that its so hard to keep God in the center of my life..

i feel like i cant face Him anymore.

i feel so ashamed of the little little things that i do wrong, like lying and stuff..

its just too hard.. i've looking forward to cg, its bout the only little time i have to reflect about my week and repent and thank God for what he has done and provided in my life.

but this few weeks, it has been vday prep all the way..

i really need God in my life.

i cant do anything right without him guiding me..

why is satan always tempting us to do sin..

and its so hard to walk away from temptation without God.

i hope that i can change..

i really really hope that i can..

i wonder how my cgmates are doing.. hopefully their are doing better than me in keeping God in the center of their lifes..

i will pray for u guys..

God is the answer to everything if u seek him with the right intentions..

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